Monday, April 09, 2007
OMG. I AM GOING TO EXPLODE IF I DON'T GET THIS OUT. NO ONE IS EXPECTED TO READ THIS AND HOPEFULLY DO NOT. ITS NOT GOIN TO BE NICE, BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT. I'VE KEPT IT IN FOR TOO LONG AND IM GONNA DIE IF I DON'T GET IT OUT.
first off, what are friends for? someone pls tell me. are they used for entertainment, for telling secrets, for sharing your feelings, for comforting, for yelling at? WHAT ARE FREAKIN FRIENDS FOR?!??!?!?!?! someone tell me pls. coz if im being a bad friend tell me. i don't know what your criteria of being 'friends' are. if i don't do it up to your freakin standard, don't blame me, you're the one that expecting too much. so shut your freakin mouth and complaining.
don't act all innocent and mature coz YOU'RE FREAKIN NOT. you freakin reached 3 based b****y two-faced slutt that cheats on her own bf and criticising other ppl when you have no right to. don't go all mighty and clever with your freakin shallow words when you're in the wrong.
let me tell you what your freakin bigass mind got you thinkin too much, personally, i think you're the meanest person on the whole entire world who try to acts all holy and goody girl. HYPOCRITE. that word is still too good to be used on you. and im being nice. now let me explain what you freakin want to believe that happened on your own.
about telling secrets in class, WE WEREN'T. we were talking about stuff that we normally would like amber and ghadi and how boring it is. NO WAY IN HELL I WOULD TELL SECRETS IN CLASS.
second, I DO TELL YOU SECRETS. don't treat is as though i don't coz i do. and you don't think there are some secrets that are suppose to remain secrets forever? those i will never break, no matter how much you try and get it out from me so don't try and tell me im a bad friend.
third, I DO NOT USE AMBER AS AN EXCUSE NOT TO TELL YOU ANY SECRETS. if i can't even bring myself to tell amber or anyone else the secret by myself in front of them, how do you expect me to go tell it in front of everyone?!!?! and eventually i had to get kirsty to tell her for me, and the only reason she knew was coz i told her on msn which isn't so bad, and she had to tell amber on the phone! and if only you could see amber then! that secret hurt her so much, she almost cried. and partly was also coz i didn't tell her first. how do expect me to tell you first then tell amber and only let her get more hurt?!?! im not able to do that. and i said that i'll tell you after i've told amber to see if shes okay with it. but no, you had to be the superior one, like all you freakin *** *** think you guys are the superior race. and be all unreasonable and not understanding, completely OPPOSITE of what friends should be like aren't you?
fourth, i DID NOT SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE. i did not say what mo said to you, he was the one freakin exagerating, i merely told him that you were talking about him in class so we [meaning amber and i] think that he may like you. that's all i freakin said, unlike you who accuse and make up crap that aren't even true. no wonder why make up goes so well onto that crap face of yours always wearing that bitchy make up. and look, you accuse me of being 'immature', of telling ppl stuff that aren't true to get back at you. goddamnit, im not a freakin 5 year old, i told mo that was coz amber asked me to ask him, no coz i wanted to get back at you you whore. you probably did want him to like you anyway. PLS DON'T THINK THAT MY WHOLE WORLD IS REVOLVING AROUND YOU. i can't stand being misunderstood and other ppl say crap shit that aren't even true like you.
fifth, and this im at fault, i did tell ghadi that kirsty liked him. but LIKED. I DIDN'T FREAKIN SAY THAT KIRSTY LIKES HIM. and so what? aren't they together now? aren't all of them happy? aren't kirsty, ghadi and amber happy? UNLIKE YOU, i actually helped them, even though i took a risk of breaking a promise. that's what friends do you know, THEY HELP THEIR FRIENDS. you just bother about your ownself, caring about your own stupid self. try and be helpful once in your life ya know?
and DO NOT CALL ME A BAD FRIEND WHEN YOU'RE NOT ONE YOURSELF. you have NO RIGHT to do that. if you prove yourself to be a better friend than me, fine by all means. BUT YOU'RE NOT. you're worse than me, at least i don't make up things and accuse other ppl.
also, you can't blame us if YOU YOURSELF DO NOT WANT TO GET INVOLVED. im pretty sure thats what you said.. you didn't want to get involved, and not being involved means not knowing stuff, unless you stupid bigass head dun get that. and apparently its so. you just don't get it.
and no offence, but everything you do, you just seem to care about yourself, if other ppl are sad, you don't care, but when you are, you expect everyone to just care about you don't you? that's what you ppl are, self-absorbed, arrogant, self-centered, selfish, uncaring, not understanding ppl. you just don't see for others. im glad im a chinese, at least i've got good asian values in me, im glad im not like you guys.
and talk about bad friends, the one that i least expected comforted me today. THANK YOU MAHITAB, you made me alot better than i did then in school. unlike them, you asked me how i was, help cheered me up and i am very thankful for that. (:
but you guys, all you self-absorbed ppl think about are whether ppl like you or not, or think that you're hott or not. never lend a shoulder to those in need. i was so upset today and only amber noticed that SO THANK YOU AMBER TOO <3 but the rest of you im really disappointed. you guys just have no idea how to be good friends, and only think about what i can get outta the person the most. SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CALL ME A BAD FRIEND.
i call amber, kirsty and mahitab friends, at least they know how to show some care to those they call friends. and i will do likewise too.
THANK YOU kirsty for trusting in me and i really appreciate that and now i know i can do so too. (: <3
and lauren, if you do read this, i want to THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH for being such a good friend to me. i can trust you with anything and i still want to, but i feel really bad if i do, coz i don't wanna complain to you so much. but thanks :D <3
<3 ya
okay, and if anyone else does read this, pls know that this is my opinion, i have nothing against you if you have nothing against me. im not racist or nothing, im just saying this all against one person as they have said the above mean things to me and i have to explain myself. thanks.
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